heart healer
I believe we hold more potential than we can possibly imagine. I also believe
many of us have had experiences that have left us feeling the opposite. We can
learn to cope by closing up parts of our hearts for protection, staying small or
rigid and we can find ourselves living lives that don’t reflect our true, juicy
brilliance. We have a choice, always, about how we respond to what we come up
against in life. We may not be conscious of it, but once we are, boy does the
game shift gears. I spent most of my life juggling far too many balls, burning
the candle at both ends and was petrified of being still. I didn’t know who I
was when I wasn’t doing something. This exhausting cycle sprung from a lack of
self-love and self-trust, which was a result of childhood abuse I had blocked
out. Feeling poor all the time, (no matter how much money was in my bank
account), perpetually single and like I was missing out on everything, I was no
longer actively suicidal but sitting on a foundation of anger and frustration.
Several major traumas in my life had not been dealt with and I was on a lot of
medication of Narcolepsy. I was holding it together, but I was far from happy or
healthy. I won’t share all the details here but am happy to bring them up when I
hold space if they are relevant; suffice to say some unbearable life
circumstances lead me to explore the spiritual path, and I began to realise
there was a lot more to being alive than I was currently experiencing. For a
while I couldn’t see it, but I had started to turn my life around from it’s very
depths. It hasn’t been easy, and it definitely hasn’t been boring. I have
travelled across rainforests, mountains, warehouses and the cosmos to find
answers, but I have generally found more questions. Learning to surrender to
what is mystic and trust in my own foundation of courage, compassion and wisdom
have been of immeasurable benefit. I’ve connected to an inner power that I was
unaware I had, it has guided me to share the tools, lessons and magic I have
collected since I first began to heal from the inside out.
